Hi! It's me.
I don't even know how to start this thing. The longer you go without doing something, the harder and more awkward it is to start. As the new year approached, I promised myself I was going to start writing more and growing my blog. It made my "More Of" list which was basically a brain-dump of things I wanted more of in my life in 2017. <the baby's crying and I just looked at her and said, "How am I supposed to do this? This is why I don't write."> But I know that's just an excuse. We make time for the things in life that are important to us and we find time when we decide the time is going to be there. For real though, I'm going to have to go lay her down. brb.
No nap. Just applesauce.
As I was saying...at some point I have to stop talking about writing and actually write. I loved this by Jon Acuff in his book START,
"I was scared to write a book. Talking about it was easier and safer than trying it and possibly finding out that I didn't have what it takes. I had clutched apathy like a shield to my chest for years, pretending I didn't really care about writing a book. I was also lazy."
I won't say that I've been completely lazy as I do have a thirteen month old who I carried around for nine months, birthed and then waded through a postpartum haze with but I have been scared. And yes, some pretending that writing isn't a deep-seeded passion of mine that I enjoy. Or that I think I'm half-way good at. Or that I long to use as a vehicle to help other people. Mostly I just think about it a lot.
Oh, man, I should write about that!
Seriously, that would make a great topic.
One day I'll write...and then I don't. Instead I check social media for the umpteenth which is getting you and I both no closer to our goals or health. But it is more fun! And feels less scary.
Yesterday I had the pleasure of talking to one of my favorite girlfriends. She told me I could I be her "food therapist" because our topic often turns to food, and healthy life and how do we do it? I said, "That's what my blog will be! Food Therapy!" And I admit one of the things that keeps me from writing is not knowing how it will all turn out or what it should look like. Health Blog? Lifestyle? Just food? Family anecdotes and cute stories about my girls? Do I need to come up with all my material and post it all at once? It needs to be perfect, right?! But I don't KNOW it all so can I even do this? <That's what it sounds like in my brain.>
Referencing my good buddy Jon again, I don't need to worry about all that. I just need to start. I need to find thirty minutes and write. That's it. Don't worry about what it's all going to look like or where it might lead, just start and the path will reveal itself.
My passion is food. And nutrition. And the recurring thought I have that sounds condescending but really isn't is this:
People don't know how to eat.
They don't know what they should be eating, how they should be eating, or how to achieve a healthy weight. They give up on day 3 of whatever current diet they're on because it's all too exhausting and complicated and I'll just go back to doing whatever it is I was doing that has me no closer to a healthy, fulfilling life. A life in which food plays a fun and non-stressful role and that doesn't require me thinking about it 24/7 to look good or feel good. They don't know how to eat for life.
And I want to help with that.
At the risk of sounding like a know-it-all, believe me, I don't. There are a lot of things I'm not very good at. I used to be neat and organized; now my house is often a mess. (I'm getting better!) Decorating is not my forte. Neither are little girl hairstyles. But food, I kind of get. And I continue to learn more every day. I'm passionate about helping YOU understand that what you EAT every day affects you more than you realize! And it's possible to use food as your ally and see it less as an enemy. Can we do that together?
I need you to ask me when you see me, "Are you writing?" Because clearly I need some accountability. Or - you can always comment on a blog post and say, "Keep it up!" That works too. :> And if you care nothing about food or learning how to eat, I'll be sure to throw stories about the girls in as well.
It's February 1st! The month of lovvve. Go love yourself.